Sipping it all in

Sometimes I have to catch myself, look up into the sun, say a prayer and start to breathe deeply again. I remember my bare feet and feel every little peble they curve into. I laugh and smile and make my worries trivial.
Sometimes I think I am so brave, ready to join into any situation.
But I am really a lame duck when it comes to just relaxing with people my age.
So tonight, I am wlaking tinto my fear, time to sit down at the kibbutz pub and do something totally illogicalirrationalalive-ical, have a Goldstar with some people-my-age.
Time to drain a fear.